Sunday, September 11, 2011

Workin' Mama

I go back to work tomorrow and I'm torn.  So very, very, very torn.

I enjoy my job very much.  The people I work with are pretty awesome and I really like what I do.  But, I'm going to be missing out on a whole lot of what TT & C-McC are doing and that.breaks.my.heart!

I am a little shocked that I am so torn up over this - I went back to work when TT was 5 months old (albeit only part time... very, very part time but still back.to.work).  This time around I got the full year (and my employer graciously gave me an extra 2wks to stay home and celebrate some very important birthdays with my boys), I think having that year gave me so much extra time to think about going back to work that it's now dominating my thoughts!  When I went back to work after TT, an opportunity arose and I just jumped in.

I feel like I haven't been a very good mom lately, I feel like I need more adult time and that makes me feel selfish

So, other working mama's... how did you do it?  Should I expect tears (from me) tomorrow? 
How can I maximize my (now limited) time with my boys (put away the crack top... got it)?
How do you keep your home running smoothly?

3 comments:

  1. Hugs Mama. You'll find your groove. Give yourself time to feel your new journey out. You will cherish the time you have with your family in a different way. You will love the adult conversations IRL. And you will always know the truest of true people in your life because anyone else will take too much of the energy you need to all 3 of your boys. Mama Murray

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  2. Good luck tomorrow!!!
    I love my job, but that doesn't make it much easier. I miss Sloan SO much every day and wonder what she is doing constantly!
    Once we figure out that independently-wealth 'thing' we won't have to worry about that will we!

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  3. I'm hoping that I can leave Eli in the principal's office with my principal and see him at recess - or even better - teach with him in the sling.

    I'm not sure it will be going back to school. Teaching was my one big passion in life. And now I have two big passions.

    I think I'll be excited to go back to work because I know that Eli will be with my parents 3 days a week. (still working on those other two days... hummm.) But I might also require photo documentation of his days.

    :)
    (I hope it went well today!)

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